*Shield* There are times when I just shut out lots of things. Especially when I am unwell. I don’t have physical activity to turn to and I’m too tired to “fake it” with the outside world. Then it’s just me, music and all the various muses in my head. Sometimes, just sometimes “I wake up, it’s a bad dream, no one on my side; I was fighting but I just feel too tired to be fighting …” When that happens, you put up the shield. If there is nothing positive, then you shut out the negative. You know the people who care are your silent pillars of strength. They are there. Just knowing that is enough. The Darkness is not overwhelming; I can still breathe … Sort of. But it’s lurking. Just the awareness that The Black Dog Bitch is still hanging around is enough. I’ve learnt that I can never out-run her – she can run anybody down. Awareness alone is like a huge weapon. #visualartdiary_michmutters #australia #fineartphotography #art